September 9, 2008

Disappointment.



Oh, Lordy.

I need me an internets hug today.

First, let me say that I had an amazing, AMAZING time in Kansas City. I had NO idea how much I needed a few days to wander around in an incredible town all by myself. I walked, read, journaled, met some ridiculously cool bloggy friends who contacted me while I was in their neck of the woods, enjoyed the rain, caught a movie, ate great food, and became more acquainted with a city that I fall more in love with every time I visit. We stayed with a family whose love and hospitality makes me feel like a daughter. I regained some lost confidence in myself simply because I had to find my own way for a few days. I enjoyed the attention that a baby bump can attract in an Urban Outfitters:

"OMG!! You're, like, totally pregnant!! Cuuuuutee! Sarah- come look at this!!!"

haha.

I have had this entire morning free as well because my above-and-beyond gracious in-laws offered to keep Ezra one more night and then drop him off at school this morning for me. I get to go pick him up in two hours. I am so refreshed and relaxed from my time away.

But here's where the sadness comes in. I got a call yesterday from OU Medical saying they needed to reschedule my appointment. I didn't know whether it was my ultrasound appointment or my midwife appointment, so I called them back this morning to figure it all out.

Turns out, it's my ULTRASOUND appointment. And they have not just pushed it back a day or two, oh no, but almost THREE WEEKS from now. And there's absolutely NOTHING I can do about it.

Maybe it's the hormones. Maybe I'm being overly dramatic about it all.

But I can't stop crying.

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

im sooo sorry Emery...i feel aweful. I havent EVER heard of that happening. It'll come.

Hunny Bee said...

Sad faces :(

I'm so sorry they put it off like that. What a bummer. I hope the next three weeks go by really, really fast and that you have the most awesomest ultrasound ever when it finally comes!

Hang in there girly.

Anonymous said...

You could just pretend that you went back in time to three weeks ago. :)

Anonymous said...

OOH OOH because Kansas City is in some kind of time warp.

Marianne Elixir said...

Have you tried the spoon? It might tie you over for a couple weeks =)

Zimms Zoo said...

I totally understand. When we got there they couldn't find our paperwork and said we would have to re-schedule. I nearly cried right there in the office.

With #5 this happened to us too. They ended up sending us to children's hospital for one.

WE can always pray that there will be an opening that will come available sooner.

I know how disheartening it is. Especially when you have been waiting all this time to really see this new little one.

I will be praying.

Anonymous said...

Oh, that is disappointing. I hope they'll be able to reschedule sooner. Maybe if you keep thinking about names, that will keep your mind off it. I know it's hard when you don't know if it's a boy or girl, but you could find some fun names that would work either way =). Put some cheery music on too.

Anonymous said...

Are there any 4D ultrasound places where you live? A friend of mine did that when they were unable to determine the sex from her regular ultrasound. Sure enough, she came home knowing 110% that it was a girl. So glad to hear that your Kansas trip was just what you needed, by the way. :)

Amy said...

Oh I'm sorry! That is really disappointing. Three weeks?? Wow.

Maybe you can get on a cancellation list?

No Mommy Brain said...

Noooo! How dare they do that to you? Don't they know how hard it is to wait for that ultrasound? 3 more hours would be excruciating but 3 more weeks is just...no fair! I think you deserve a good cry. Hopefully it will make you feel better. I'll be thinking about you...

Lift Up Your Hearts said...

3 WEEKS! Oh NO!! I sobbed when one of my u/s was pushed back 3 DAYS! I'm so SORRY!

Excellent Parent said...

i would be crying to! I undersatnd, you just cry girl, but three weeks well come and go and the next thing you know you are waiting for your thirds ultrasound date to come! Bless you!

Lisa said...

3 weeks?! I'd be crawling out of my skin.

skylana said...

oh my gosh. i'm pissed. and its not even my ultrasound. i can't even wait to find out what you're having so... NO you are NOT being overly dramatic. that is SUPER SUPER lame.

THE WHITTINGTONS said...

that is so frustrating. i'm so sorry. i had some friends go to a local ultrasound place as well when their ultrasound got postponed. i think it was around $150. just depends on if you can afford that or not, or would rather just wait for insurance to cover it... IN 3 WEEKS! that really is crazy.

GIRL'S GONE CHILD said...

Okay so a very similar thing happened to me with Archer, except I went in for the ultrasound and he was facing the wrong way. My doctor told me I would have to wait until my 8 month apt to find out the sex. I cried and I cried and I cried and then? I found one of those strip-mall ultrasound places and dropped 100$ and found out. Seriously? Best 100$ ever. Google it, lady. I'm sure there's one around the block.

Talia said...

I was going to say exactly what Girl's Gone Child said... Find yourself another place and make an appt, if you can afford it. I've had lots of friends do that when the hospital was being stupid about it. Three weeks is TOO LONG TO WAIT. We're all on pins and needles here!!! :)

Seriously though, I completely understand, and I think I would cry my eyes out too. I almost cried yesterday at my dr. appt. when she told me I'd have to wait until the first week of November to find out, instead of the middle of October, like I was kind of thinking. And that's NOTHING compared to this!

I'm really sorry for your disappointment, and I really hope something else works out!! Here is your HUGE internet hug, my pregnant friend!! {{{{{heart}}}}}

Stephanie said...

Big hugs to you. I would feel just as disappointed if I were you as well!