February 11, 2009

Baby Love.



This picture makes me want to cry my face off from love and then have more babies. I never thought I was a "baby" person, but OH! I SO AM!

As it turns out, I just needed a chance to get comfortable around babies... and to get comfortable with myself as a mother.

When I had Ezra, it was like I was fighting against the mother in me... I still wanted to cling to the "old emery". I didn't want to budge one iota of my identity in order to embrace motherhood- because I was afraid of what I might become. Would I be boring? Stuffy? Paranoid? Would I lose all elements of self and be just another woman pushing a stroller?

Having this second baby has been so freeing for me. Because, Yes!! It's official!! I am a mother through & through! And you know what? It's the best thing about me. Being a mom has made me a stronger, more selfless person. And I've discovered that you CAN have children without completely losing yourself.

As far as I'm concerned, the 'old emery' can take a hike.

I much prefer the woman that these boys are making me.


MUNCHABLE.

15 comments:

JessicaToday said...

this was so beautifully put :)

Cheatwoods said...

hey, this is in response to stepping back and this one. I am proud of you! And its so good to remember! things are circumstantial. You know what helps me, when things are hectic, I just laugh! what else can you do?? Your wonderful Emery!

Erin said...

Just want you to know that you encourage me. Being a mother is so amazing. Some days I know I take it for granted. Thanks for sharing. It blesses me and so many others :)

Annie Peterson said...

oh, it is SO good to hear a mom type that. :) :)

mrs boo radley said...

Miss Emery, you are so intuitive and I love that.

Anonymous said...

I'm sure this isnt the first time you've heard this but, Myer looks EXACTLY like your husband! Hope all is well because I hear your state has had some wicked weather lately.

Olive Oyl said...

your sweet boy is so adorable!!! as if I didn't already have baby fever... ay ay ay, this kid is making it rise a billion degrees!!

Kaylen said...

Wow--that is a GREAT picture!! Love the brown on brown and the little tiny feet and the look on his face!
Those are great words - it's so nice to read of such love, not just of your kids, but of the love you feel towards yourself as a mother.
Beautiful.

Jane said...

I'm finding your posts lately to be really encouraging (as someone said in a comment above). Thank you! :)

MarvelousMOM said...

Even though I am still awaiting the arrival of my first, I was happy to get rid of the old me when taking on the responsibility of a step-mom. It is the best thing in the world looking after and caring for two little ones. I can't wait to welcome the new one!

Christina said...

Its good you got that with number 2, I am now accepting the mom God has called me to be and I just had baby girl #3 7 weeks ago. God Bless...

skylana said...

i am not really a baby person... BUT... i am enjoying nola being a baby more than i did with ara... i think i know not to take her for granted and i appreciate her gentleness after a day of a hyper two year old saying no and yelling. hmm not that aras not great... just more intense.

faith said...

What a sweet post.

Adriane said...

Oh my goodness. That (bottom) picture is adorable. What a cutie pie! As always... love reading your blog.

Talia said...

ummmm, yes, totally and completely munchable. you have ridiculously adorable children, you know!!