January 31, 2009

I Can Do This. (I Think.)







This is a sampling of photos that my friend Samantha Lamb came and took a couple of days ago. She is an amazing artist and photographer... check out her site and keep your eyes peeled for her shows here in the OKC area! Thanks, Sam!

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Yesterday was my first day alone with both kids, and I was kindof freaking out about it the night before. I didn't have any confidence in myself and I felt like a little kid lost in the never-ending isles of a grocery store. I felt scared and I really didn't think I could do it.

But, when Monday rolled around, I did just fine. I got up and took a shower and got dressed. I put on makeup. I took the boys out to lunch before our playgroup date, and started to freak out a little when I realized I'd have to figure out a way to carry my drink and the carseat (BEAST heavy!) and the food back out the door- all while trying to keep Ezra out of traffic and harm's way. But it was easy. I carefully put my drink in the food bag so that it only took one hand to carry it all. I grabbed the carseat and realized that all those years of training and disciplining my son are sooooo paying off now, because he listens to what I say and he stays close by me when I ask him to. Easy Breezy.

Playgroup was wonderful- and getting to spend time talking with other mommies was exactly what I needed. I felt my confidence growing stronger as the day rolled on. In the evening, we took the kids to our friend Joel's birthday party (HAPPY 31rst, bestest buddy!!) and I was reminded of how utterly ADAPTABLE kids really are. Ezra was asleep on the couch most of the night, and Myer was totally chill as we passed him around to our friends to hold. When others weren't cuddling him, he hung out in the sling and slept. It was so fun.

I can do this.

{I think.}

Today, Ezra is in school till 2:00, and Chris took him this morning, so I didn't even have to worry about getting both kids out of the house. Myer and I have been chilling at home and cleaning the bedroom/doing laundry. Later, we'll all go to the library and then it's yummy pizza dinner with Chris' parents tonight.

It's so strange how life just rolls right on... how it feels like Myer was born AGES and AGES ago...

Almost like he's been here all along.

I can totally do this.

10 comments:

MoMar said...

The more you do this the easier it gets. It is so good for the kids to get out and learn how to roll with it all too. You can totally do this. No worries.

Annie Peterson said...

You can TOTALLY do this! and you can do it with joy and have joyful kids and peace in your home...it's all gonna be wonderful. :)

MsN said...

I have SOOO been thinking about you. You are amazing! I love the words "Its like he's been here all along." Yes! That is exactly how I feel about Abby too! love you!

hunnybeemay said...

Emery, can I be totally honest with you. I am so jealous of you right now. And happy for you at the same time. My second one is 11 weeks and an angel. But I am a wreck. Well, not all the time, but sometimes. And I don't even know why. It's been a struggle but I know I'm getting back to myself. I don't know why I'm dumping this on your lovely post. I guess just to say, don't take for granted what you have been given. You are very blessed and you are a blessing. Congratulations!!!

mrs boo radley said...

I love Myer's nose.

And, of course, you rock.

Candace said...

I am reminded of the little engine that could.... You can do this Emery...you have been doing it all along. Your amazing and a wonderful mother! Love you bunches can't wait to see you!

MarvelousMOM said...

I never would have thought it would have gone any different. You are a wonderful mother. And those are beautiful pictures.

Jooste Roost said...

Thanks for this post, Emery. I so needed to hear this right now. I have had a few of the those rather intense days of training with Andrew (he's almost 2 1/2) and feel ready to cry most the time because I feel so insecure about what exactly I am supposed to do with him when he behaves certain ways... I know by now that these are just "seasons" and that they will pass and the our Father will give me all the wisdom I need to raise this little boy - but in the moment I feel exhausted - emotionally and physically! So thanks for the encouragement, because by God's grace "I can totally do this." Myer is adorable, by the way :)

Cheatwoods said...

never even crossed my mind that you couldnt! love u!

Emery Jo said...

oh, hunnybee, hang in there! i have had rough days too- where my patience with ezra is non-existent and the lack of sleep feels like dead weight around my neck. I know it will get better- I'm cheering for you and I really appreciate you cheering for me too! we can do it! :)