Second- I'm having a name crisis.
Chris and I had pretty much decided on a certain name for this baby, even before we were pregnant, and were planning on using that name for a boy or a girl. We were so sure of it. But then, a few weeks ago, I started to research the name a bit and found out that it is one of the fastest growing names in popularity in the country.
Some people may say, "So what? You like then name- who cares how popular it is??" My answer: I DO. I care. And I know in the large, grand scheme of things, it really isn't that big of a deal, but I grew up with a unique name and I feel that it helped define me in some ways. I believe names are powerful. They have meaning and sway and significance on the life they define.
So, I've been on the hunt for possible substitutes ever since. I obsess. I always have my ears open. I think about it all the time.
(My mom told me recently she was the same way when it came to naming us, so I am chalking all of this up to GENETICS. heh.)
I was always told that my mom found my name while scanning the credits after the movie "On Golden Pond." I always felt a connection to this movie because of that, but I had never, ever actually seen it.
Well, last night I watched that movie and GUESS WHAT MOM? There was no 'Emery' in the making of that film. What movie were you watching?!?
Here's the other thing that is making this process difficult for us... When we chose Ezra's name, it was nothing short of EPIC. We felt that God had spoken the name directly into our ears and confirmed it by it being a family name without us even realizing it. There was no doubt in our minds about it. I had stressed for months before God spoke to us about the name Ezra, but as soon as I heard him say it, there wasn't any more doubt. We knew the search was over.
So.... now... this time around.... do we wait for that epic name reveal again? And if we don't have a similar experience this go 'round, will I be okay with that? Do I just pick one I like and go with it?
Anywho. My brain has been hijacked. I know it will all turn out fine, but in the meantime? I'm going