April 14, 2010

Worth Fighting For.

This has been a very hard season.

I am at the end of myself, which I know in my head is probably a good thing, but in my heart it feels like I'm falling into a void.

The one thing I am trying to remember:
There's a heart in my chest that is precious and worth fighting for.

And even when it feels like no one else is fighting for it, not even my own self, God still is. He never tires or grows weary of me and my brokenness. He never runs out of patience with me. Even when healing seems to be slow in coming. When I can't see Him or feel Him, when I feel so deeply alone, He's there... gently filling my lungs up with my very next breath.

So, that's where I'm at now.

Breathing. Holding on.

And praying that He'll come through and save me.

He's done it before. Logic tells me that He can do it again.

13 comments:

KillerB said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having a difficult season, Emery-- but I'm excited to hear about what comes out of it! God will not disappoint :)

Anonymous said...

You have brought me laughter, hope and inspiration through your posts. So let me try to give some back to you (well, I'm not really that funny, but still). The world is a better place because you're in it, Emery.
((hugs)) from Angie, a fan in Toronto, Canada.

Shelley said...

I feel like I'm in the same boat you are, its HARD!

Rachael said...

I'm praying for you.

TLee said...

sending hugs and warm fuzzy thoughts across the miles...

Karen, Scott, and Jared said...

totally agree with the Canadian... the world is a much better place with Emery in it. :-)

Molly said...

A big ol' "Woo Hoo" to God for creating AND sustaining you!
One breath at a time... I totally get it and couldn't have said it better myself.

zaiahbird said...

The cool thing about your life Emery is that God uses it to touch sooo many people. I can't tell you how many times I've been talking to people that are going through things and I tell them to read your blog (and the bible) because it's been something you've worked through. You are not alone. you have a whole blog reading world out here that loves you and loves reading what you have to say.

Rachael said...

Hey! I thought of you when reading about Paul & Silas being imprisoned after they were whipped. They continued to glorify God even though they were in pain and that led to the conversion of others. How awesome is it that you are doing the same in the midst of your struggles!

Nikki said...

You are sooo worth fighting for girl! I LOVE you and think you are amazing. Know that I'm thinking about you. :)

Jen Schlenker said...

love you sweet friend. He LOVING, Kind hand is on you.... His mercies are NEW and livng and you are never Dead- even when your emotions are telling you that. He brings, breath and life and newness, Hang on, Keep Fighting...

anna joy said...

once again, just where i'm at. this is sooo encouraging. God told me to check out your blog, and he always does at the right time! <3 He is faithful.

psalm 18:25<3<3

love, annajoy

Emery Jo said...

thank you all so much for your words of encouragement and HOPE!! You are so kind to me... :)